thinking

[graveexcitement]

It's been a while, huh. I've been having a... perhaps not "bad" semester, but "mixed-success" semester. And part of that is that I've been kind of... well, you know that tumblr post that's like "filling up all of your time with books, fanfic, youtube, social media, podcasts, music, to prevent the chance of a single thought occurring in your head"? Yeah, that's kinda been me. Which makes it remarkable that I have managed to do some stuff! But I've just overall been very averse to... spending any significant time thinking. And thus my journalling habits (both here and in my private journals) have fallen by the wayside.

So, I'm trying to fix that.

My academics are... ahem... [insert "*chuckles* I'm in danger" meme]. Well, two of my classes are basically fine. The third class is the one I'm in danger of failing due to missed work. The professor is very lenient and will let me turn in most of my assignments absurdly late; I just have to scrape myself together enough to actually do that. Which will be my next goal after I finish writing this. This class is unfortunately vital to my degree; I need to make a C in order to take the next and final course in the sequence in the fall. Which I am also excited to take, because one of my favorite professors is teaching it and a friend from last semester is taking it as well! I really don't want to lose that opportunity... or delay my graduation till Spring 23 T_T.

I've also managed to connect with some classmates of mine, at least in a "sit together in class, walk to next class, and (in one case) eat lunch together" way, which is nice. I've also joined a student organization for the first time since freshman year; a few of the aforementioned classmates are officers there, so I knew some people in the org already. It's nice.

I mentioned last year that I've been greatly enjoying wearing long skirts. This has continued and I am very happy with them (and keep buying more, oops); I feel cute and fashionable for color-coordinating a t-shirt with a skirt, and people compliment my outfits too, which is nice. On top of that, I've started painting my nails. It's turned out to be the only thing that has ever stopped me from biting/picking at my nails, and they're also colorful & shiny & smooth; overall, quite satisfying.

Finally, last month I knuckled down and made an appointment to be prescribed HRT, which happened last week; then today I picked up my prescription and was instructed on how to self-inject T. It was easier than I thought it would be; well, the preparation stuff is kind of fiddly and I'm nervous I'll fuck it up in the future, but the actual injection part was fine.

I think that covers most of it, so I suppose now I'll return to overdue homework. Hope y'all are doing well!

Comments

[hellofriendsiminthedark]

Good to hear from you! Friends and nail polish and HRT (!!!) all sound great! Falling behind in school can be a challenge, but it sounds like your professor is on your side, rooting for you to succeed.

[graveexcitement]

(oops late reply) yeah!! professor is definitely on my side, i just gotta defeat my own brain :P truly a herculean task

semester will soon be over, thank goodness.

hope you're doing well!