graveexcitement

here's my quarterly life updates post!

i had to drop my japanese class this spring semester. so i'm retaking it now as a 5-week summer class; next week is the last week. it's every day at 9am on zoom. so, i didn't relish becoming diurnal for a month, but it's worked out pretty well so far.

this class has kind of taken up most of my brainspace, though. i was hoping to get some more writing done and just... nope. i was hoping to decide whether i wanted to take steps toward going on T, and i was hovering on the edge of that when the class started and that concept just got shoved aside.

i did, however, receive a skirt i ordered from Maya Kern back in March, and i fell in love. i hadn't worn a skirt since like seventh grade; back then it just felt kind of vaguely uncomfortable and not-like-me. but sometime in the last like 6 months i started noticing my attention being drawn to boys wearing skirts, in a gender-feelings/gender-envy way, so i decided to experiment. i was worried that it would give me dysphoria, in a similar way that men with long hair give me gender envy but i feel a little bleh when my own hair starts getting long, but that worry proved untrue.

so ya, i love skirts now and have acquired two more (this time from Fresh Hot Flavors.) they're all long ("midi" length) skirts, so they fall down to a bit above my ankles, which is super comfy; i like how i can still sit criss-cross-applesauce without worrying about flashing anyone (tho i've taken a tip from a friend and am wearing pajama shorts underneath anyways), and even can keep many of my gremlin poses appropriate. it kind of feels like a blanket for my legs, which is only occasionally a tad too hot (these are not designed for Texas summer, but i still walk out to the mailbox in them anyway). also they all have super deep pockets :3

also i love them like, sensorily? from a sensory perspective? the swish of the fabric against my legs is really, really nice. pretty much the only time they're a hassle is when lying in bed, they get kind of tangled there.

they also like... help me feel cute, fashion-wise, even if i don't have anything to wear them with (so i've just traded my "t-shirt + shorts/jeans" for "t-shirt + long skirt," lol.) it's like... it definitely isn't fashionable! but it doesn't feel boring like most of my wardrobe does. (most of my wardrobe is selected for comfortable clothes! which isn't bad but the skirts are comfy and flowy fabric and colorful / neat patterns / etc.)

i think that's all of my skirt thoughts. on to exchanges for a moment; i keep thinking i want to actually sign up for fffx this year, and i had a ton of fun with ficinabox last year, but -- possibly because my brainspace is taken up by my japanese class -- i just haven't felt motivated to sign up for the former or submit nominations for the latter (granted, if i don't nominate for FIAB i'll probably be fine as my favorite fandoms were transferred over from last year's tagset.)

also the crossworks deadline is fast approaching. i've got a week, but it'll hit right after my japanese class concludes, which might have been ok except that's also around when my cousin's driving down to visit; ideally i could finish it this weekend instead... i just need to get into like... the headspace of these fandoms? rather than the daydream universe i've been floating in in the last week or two

ok, that's enough rambling for now. hope y'all are doing well!