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[graveexcitement]

well... i intended to use dw more in january... and do the snowflake challenge... got 1.5 posts in (i did a lot of challenge 2 but never unlocked it cause i didn't finish) before Life Happened and then alongside that i felt guilty for not going on dw like i wanted to and then i avoided it more out of guilt (note: 'avoid the thing more to avoid the guilt, which itself causes guilt' is my least favorite habit of mine)

anyways... uh i've now been back at university for 3 weeks. uh. going... ok so far. sort of keeping up with readings, only missed one hw assignment so far (because i forgot about it.)

i've had sinus issues for the last few days, graduated to coughing today. feels plain unfair as my last sinus problem was only in november. but i don't get sick much so whatever, it's really just an annoyance

it's sunday. another day where i mostly fail to do things, except unlike saturday i feel bad about it.

there are just. a number of things i could be doing to improve my life but i just subsist on the bare minimum and spin my wheels. i mean. overall i think i'm doing better than what this post sounds like but at this exact moment i'm like "i dunno man. i just don't know."

i do at least have a cat on my lap, so there's that.

Comments

[orangerful]

You're not spinning your wheels, you're back at university with all the stress and whatnot that entails. It's hard work being in school, definitely hard to do that and have the time/energy for much else. Don't feel guilty.

cats on laps are good things too :)

[graveexcitement]

thank you! unfortunately i worry that my "bare minimum of what works" habits will also impact my school performance. for example, hard to stay organized if i don't even take out my bullet journal (which i use as a planner) once or twice a day, which i have been struggling with.

[orangerful]

It is hard to get back into the habit of things. Could you maybe set alarms on your phone or computer to remind you? Or stick post-it notes on things (like bathroom mirror or coffee pot, something you see every day) to remind yourself to look at your journal?

[graveexcitement]

alarms is a good idea... maybe i’ll set afternoon or evening alarms to remind me to check it later in the day, since i’ve actually managed to bujo every day either on my way to campus or in my first class of the day. thanks!