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graveexcitementsometimes i feel like, when it comes to discussing media, i am spiritually one with this video.
"have you seen she-ra?" no, but...
"have you played breath of the wild?" a little...
"have you seen castlevania?" no, hear good...
"what about mob psycho 100?" no, i should watch...
hear good; need watch
and like... it's not that i feel like i'm being hounded about things i wouldn't actually be interested in; on the contrary, for the majority of the examples i just gave, i think i would likely enjoy them a great deal. but i just... have a weird Thing about media sometimes.
and it's not even limited to stuff i haven't tried yet! as i mentioned i've listened to some (like 2 arcs) of TAZ, and i enjoyed it! but i just... haven't gotten around to listening to more of it. to some extent this is because it's a podcast and my audio processing is bad enough that my opportunities to listen to podcasts are limited (primarily when commuting or doing chores), but it's not limited to podcasts. several months ago i binged most of season one of The Good Place in like 2 days, and... haven't watched any more of it. i'm a big fan of the ASOUE books, and i watched & enjoyed the first season of the show, but when the second season came out i watched a few episodes and then stopped. i still haven't seen the latest season of red versus blue.
(side note: this is why steven universe's airing schedule is hell for me. when i get Behind on a thing, i find it difficult to catch back up because of this weird Thing i have about media, and SU's hectic airing schedule means i get behind often. thankfully i have a friend who likes to watch su with me, which helps bypass the Thing.)
whatever the thing was, it's not that i wasn't enjoying the thing, or that i don't think i'll enjoy the thing. in fact with the series i paused in the middle of, i know i'll enjoy it if i start watching it again. and yet i just... don't. for reasons i can't even properly articulate. the most i can do is speculate:
over our texts in December and January, my friend J has mentioned these media: Metal Gear Solid, The World Ends With You, a few movies, and a game called Donut County. through that same time period, the only new media i've consumed is Zero Escape, and Zero Escape has been the primary media i've cared about (with Danganronpa and BNHA being secondary.) granted, i don't know if all of the media J mentioned were new to him or if he'd gotten back into them, was randomly reccing them, etc. but even so, that's SEVERAL medias that he brought up while messaging me over those 2 months, and all that while i've only wanted to talk about the one (though i would've been happy to talk about some of my other fandoms, like DR or BNHA, if they had come up in conversation.) so, i don't know. is it the obsession/one-track mind thing?
similarly, i only see my cousin B two or three times a year, and whenever we meet we talk about what media we've seen/played recently. and i always feel like i give a handful of examples: "oh, in the last few months i watched ASOUE, the latest GoT season, the latest Expanse season, and i'm starting to get into BNHA. games-wise, i've mostly been playing stardew valley & overwatch. how about you?" and he'll list like, a dozen or two anime, games, and TV shows he's consumed recently. and i'm just like "oh yeah, i've heard those are good..." and like, i actually think his media consumption habits are above average, but still...
(that kind of makes it sound like he's not being a good conversational partner, which isn't the case; i'm just trying to compare our media viewing habits.)
this is also part of why i've occasionally felt awkward in my japanese classes; for all that i like anime, i haven't actually... watched that much anime. one punch man, BNHA, a few more that i can't recall right now, a handful more that i stopped watching in the middle of and didn't come back to. (actually, i technically didn't finish watching BNHA either, because i got impatient and started reading the fanfic instead. another thing i need to finish watching, and then read more of the manga...) and so it's like, oh have you seen mob psycho? you really haven't seen full metal alchemist? what about bleach? you never watched naruto?? (though at least with those last two, i've firmly put them in the category of I Will Not Attempt To Watch/Get Into These, so i don't feel the weird "hear good, need to watch" feeling, just "oh yeah, not my thing.")
i don't know. yet another theory: i'm a very habitual person, so because i don't make a habit of seeking out new Media, it often doesn't cross my mind to do so, or when it does, i often end up shrugging and [listening to music]/[watching youtube]/[replaying/watching media i've already seen]/[reading fanfic] instead.
i don't really seek out new music, either. usually i just stumble across a new song on tumblr or youtube recommendations and then start listening to it.
so... overall, i just don't know. i don't know if it's a mindset thing, or a focus thing, or a habit thing, or a one track mind thing. it's just a thing! that i've got.
i don't really know what to... do about it, if anything. i guess... try to remind myself that i would enjoy X media if i picked it back up again and continued watching/playing it? just like how when i picked BNHA back up again (after having stopped watching at like, ep 6), i ended up super enjoying it!
but v often i just don't feel the urge to [consume a new media] or [consume more of a media i've started]. so i just don't. my one idea is for podcasts; this semester i'm going to try to listen to podcasts on mondays/wednesdays when i take the train down to campus, instead of listening to music and daydreaming like i usually do. of course, when i tried that on wednesday i just ended up dozing off and not hearing the podcast at all, lol.
does anyone else experience anything similar?
"you haven't read/watched lord of the rings?" no, i know it's one of the Nerd Classics Of Our Time but i haven't gotten around to it...
"you haven't watched full metal alchemist??" no, but i hear it's good...
"have you played night in the woods?" no, i hear it's good though...
"have you listened to TAZ?" well i listened to a bit of it and it's good but i haven't gotten around to listening to more..."you haven't watched full metal alchemist??" no, but i hear it's good...
"have you played night in the woods?" no, i hear it's good though...
"have you seen she-ra?" no, but...
"have you played breath of the wild?" a little...
"have you seen castlevania?" no, hear good...
"what about mob psycho 100?" no, i should watch...
hear good; need watch
and like... it's not that i feel like i'm being hounded about things i wouldn't actually be interested in; on the contrary, for the majority of the examples i just gave, i think i would likely enjoy them a great deal. but i just... have a weird Thing about media sometimes.
and it's not even limited to stuff i haven't tried yet! as i mentioned i've listened to some (like 2 arcs) of TAZ, and i enjoyed it! but i just... haven't gotten around to listening to more of it. to some extent this is because it's a podcast and my audio processing is bad enough that my opportunities to listen to podcasts are limited (primarily when commuting or doing chores), but it's not limited to podcasts. several months ago i binged most of season one of The Good Place in like 2 days, and... haven't watched any more of it. i'm a big fan of the ASOUE books, and i watched & enjoyed the first season of the show, but when the second season came out i watched a few episodes and then stopped. i still haven't seen the latest season of red versus blue.
(side note: this is why steven universe's airing schedule is hell for me. when i get Behind on a thing, i find it difficult to catch back up because of this weird Thing i have about media, and SU's hectic airing schedule means i get behind often. thankfully i have a friend who likes to watch su with me, which helps bypass the Thing.)
whatever the thing was, it's not that i wasn't enjoying the thing, or that i don't think i'll enjoy the thing. in fact with the series i paused in the middle of, i know i'll enjoy it if i start watching it again. and yet i just... don't. for reasons i can't even properly articulate. the most i can do is speculate:
- is it part of my habitual inability to do things that Me-In-General wants to do, but Me-In-That-Specific-Moment often doesn't care about, like writing, bullet journalling, getting out of bed, showering, reading things that aren't fanfiction?
- is it that i just don't like or find it difficult to focus on consuming New media (either new things i haven't seen/played/read yet, or new episodes of things i already like) and would prefer to either reread, replay, rewatch things i've already consumed, or read fanfic about said media?
- is it because the idea "i should watch this, because i would enjoy it" gets translated by my brain as "i should do this" and then it becomes a Thing I Should Do, and starts feeling like a Task, which means i avoid it?
- is it that when other people watch a thing, they just watch it and enjoy it, but for me i tend to (or tend to want to) Get Into stuff i fully watch, so i hear "you should watch this" as "you should Get Really Into this," which is a lot more of a time/energy commitment?
- is it that my brain is either Full On Obsessed with something or [vague shrug] about it, so if i'm not hooked enough to become obsessed, it falls by the wayside?
- i don't know which of these are true, or partially true, or if it's a combination of several
- ????
over our texts in December and January, my friend J has mentioned these media: Metal Gear Solid, The World Ends With You, a few movies, and a game called Donut County. through that same time period, the only new media i've consumed is Zero Escape, and Zero Escape has been the primary media i've cared about (with Danganronpa and BNHA being secondary.) granted, i don't know if all of the media J mentioned were new to him or if he'd gotten back into them, was randomly reccing them, etc. but even so, that's SEVERAL medias that he brought up while messaging me over those 2 months, and all that while i've only wanted to talk about the one (though i would've been happy to talk about some of my other fandoms, like DR or BNHA, if they had come up in conversation.) so, i don't know. is it the obsession/one-track mind thing?
similarly, i only see my cousin B two or three times a year, and whenever we meet we talk about what media we've seen/played recently. and i always feel like i give a handful of examples: "oh, in the last few months i watched ASOUE, the latest GoT season, the latest Expanse season, and i'm starting to get into BNHA. games-wise, i've mostly been playing stardew valley & overwatch. how about you?" and he'll list like, a dozen or two anime, games, and TV shows he's consumed recently. and i'm just like "oh yeah, i've heard those are good..." and like, i actually think his media consumption habits are above average, but still...
(that kind of makes it sound like he's not being a good conversational partner, which isn't the case; i'm just trying to compare our media viewing habits.)
this is also part of why i've occasionally felt awkward in my japanese classes; for all that i like anime, i haven't actually... watched that much anime. one punch man, BNHA, a few more that i can't recall right now, a handful more that i stopped watching in the middle of and didn't come back to. (actually, i technically didn't finish watching BNHA either, because i got impatient and started reading the fanfic instead. another thing i need to finish watching, and then read more of the manga...) and so it's like, oh have you seen mob psycho? you really haven't seen full metal alchemist? what about bleach? you never watched naruto?? (though at least with those last two, i've firmly put them in the category of I Will Not Attempt To Watch/Get Into These, so i don't feel the weird "hear good, need to watch" feeling, just "oh yeah, not my thing.")
i don't know. yet another theory: i'm a very habitual person, so because i don't make a habit of seeking out new Media, it often doesn't cross my mind to do so, or when it does, i often end up shrugging and [listening to music]/[watching youtube]/[replaying/watching media i've already seen]/[reading fanfic] instead.
i don't really seek out new music, either. usually i just stumble across a new song on tumblr or youtube recommendations and then start listening to it.
so... overall, i just don't know. i don't know if it's a mindset thing, or a focus thing, or a habit thing, or a one track mind thing. it's just a thing! that i've got.
i don't really know what to... do about it, if anything. i guess... try to remind myself that i would enjoy X media if i picked it back up again and continued watching/playing it? just like how when i picked BNHA back up again (after having stopped watching at like, ep 6), i ended up super enjoying it!
but v often i just don't feel the urge to [consume a new media] or [consume more of a media i've started]. so i just don't. my one idea is for podcasts; this semester i'm going to try to listen to podcasts on mondays/wednesdays when i take the train down to campus, instead of listening to music and daydreaming like i usually do. of course, when i tried that on wednesday i just ended up dozing off and not hearing the podcast at all, lol.
does anyone else experience anything similar?
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