graveexcitement

just gonna ramble about some general life updates and thoughts

the spring semester was kind of a shitshow; ended up dropping one class (which i'll retake in the second summer session, which starts mid-july) but thankfully making As in the others. (maybe i'll actually have dragged myself out of academic probation?)

it sucked but it also feels far away now, since it's been 3 weeks since i turned in my last assignment. a lot of my last 3 weeks have been writing a lot of exchange fics (like... 6?? 2 were drabbles but still, 4 fics in the 1k-3k wordcount range is a lot more than i usually do in a month (i wrote nothing in April, lol.)

also i may try to do the June Something posting meme (kind of like Snowflake Challenge, which i historically have completely failed at, but who knows.)

hmm... media.

after watching Star Wars: Clone Wars last year, my parents and i moved on to Star Wars Rebels, which we finished pretty much in time for The Bad Batch to start airing. i liked Rebels, though i didn't like the ending that much. Bad Batch is cute i guess tho i'm not particularly invested.

my parents and my sister and i are watching Shadow & Bone, one episode a week. i read the first grishaverse book back when it was new and remember very little about it; i am enjoying the show tho, especially the Six of Crows characters, so after we finish the show i may read the books.

i'm watching Legend of Korra with my brother, at his request. we're partway into season 3 and it's fun! i watched season 1 when it first came out but didn't watch anything beyond that, so the rest is new to me. brother has seen it before, we're just continuing our tradition of "making the other one experience media we like by experiencing it with them." i wonder if we'll ever decide to consume a media together that neither of us has experienced yet? ...somehow i don't think so.

i've been reading The King's Avatar off and on since like. fucking february. i'm like 2/3rds of the way through. this is SO FUCKING LONG. i do enjoy it but jesus fucking christ. it's like 2.5 to 3 million words. for comparison, ASOIAF is currently 1.75m and The Expanse is 1.33m. but i swear i could read The Expanse two or three times in like a month, while it's taken me three to get through two thirds of TKA. and i would want to do those rereads! whereas i don't think i'll ever reread TKA, not in full. i do still enjoy it but knowing that i still have like a million words left is kind of dragging on my motivation to keep going.

i've gotten into Hollow Knight again and it's pleasing to see how much i've improved! i have gotten all but one achievement, which requires beating the intimidating Pantheon of Hallownest.

other than that... thinking about taking steps to get on testosterone. don't really have the energy to unpack it rn. just feels like i've been thinking about it for like 8+ months and i don't know whether i can achieve the certainty i want in my decision before actually making the decision. based on my past history of trans decisions, i only truly achieve certainty and rid myself of doubt after doing the thing. mmh. a subject for when i'm less tired.

in 2 weeks my cousins will be visiting! first time i've seen them in person since christmas 2019. and then end of june my best friend will also be coming to visit! v excited for both of these

ok, it's nearly 4am so i should sleep. o/