graveexcitement

started writing a post last week and then i got sidetracked because i got really moody and realized it was because i was hungry so then i went to eat and didn't come back to the post.

went all of april and may + nearly half of june without posting, huh. there was... a lot. but then the last month has been not so much. so i both feel like i've accumulated too much to talk about but can't figure out how to unpack it now.

uh. school went ok in the end. due to professors being very gracious and understanding about late work.

watched the witcher with my parents like a month or so back. that was fun. my grandma watched & read the witcher before we did and gave us her copies of the books. i read book 1 a while back but haven't opened book 2 yet.

been playing lots of animal crossing. not much else. some crypt of the necrodancer recently, cause my brother's gotten back into it.

i procrastinated on registering for fall 2020 classes; i only today bit the bullet and scheduled myself an advising appointment (over zoom) for monday. which will. i suppose. kind of determine whether i commit to changing my major to japanese. currently it's undeclared. i realized i had better pick something, even if i change it again later. and i like japanese (took 4 semesters at community college); i like learning languages in general, and i'm good at it. i'll need to self-study over the summer tho to refresh my memory, since my last japanese class was spring 2019.

mostly i just need to get my classes sorted so that i'll be registered for fall. by then i'm sure i'll be craving routine/structure. (here's the secret: "craving structure" is why i came back to school in the first place, first to community college and now back to university. when i'm feeling good, i'm also enthusiastic about learning shit. other times... i'm here because i need to do something. this does not make committing to a major easier.)

honestly i already need routine/structure but. mm. the best i'm really doing is going to sleep between 1 and 3 am, as opposed to the summer schedule i often do of sleeping at like 5 or 6 or 7 am. and i have two weekly tabletop RPGs, one on sunday morning (10 am ;-;. wish it wasn't so early) and one on friday afternoon. and there's animal crossing.

frustrated. now i'm moody again. great. i'll have to come back to the idea of trying to impose some sort of routine on myself later.